i was at the river with some friends i had to cross threw wayer to get to wete they were it was getting late i told him i had to go home that my mom was going to be worried my phone wasnt charged so i couldnt call her and also his friend took off on my bike somewere so i was waiting for my bike friend didnt get thete and it was getting dark and my friend was drinking he wasnt wanting to leave and i didnt know which way to cross back over so that i didnt have to waLK ALL THE WAY around than cross over and i was scatred to turn into wrong way we had to go threw bushes and alot of branches so i waited until i heard everyone screaming probation sweep i got mmore scared because i had a warrant of twenty days i had to go do but i was wanting to spend mothers dY WITH MY KIDS AND MY NOM I DIDNT KNOW IT COULD OF BEEN OUR LAST ONE TOGETHER SO I PROMISED HER AS SOON AS MOTHERS DAY PASSED I WAS GOING TO TURN MY SELF IN SO I PANICKED I HAD UST GOT SOME DRUGS AND IT WAS ON ME SO I GAVE IT TO SOME GIRL I DIDNT KNOW AND RAN THE OTHER WAY SO THEY WOULDNT GET ME BUT I RAN INTO A LINE WETRE I THOUGHT EVERYONE UMPING THE BRIDGE TO GET OVER OTHER SIDE THE SIDE I HAD TO GET ON BUT NOPE IT WAS THE LINE WETRE COPS HAD ALL PEOPLE WITH WARRANTS GETTING THEM HANDCUFFED PUTTING IN BIG US SO IRAN THREW ALOT OF PEOPLE I SEEN A GIRL WITH PHONE I ASKED HER IF I CAN CVALL MY MOM SHE LET ME I CALLED MOMTOLD HER THE SITUATION AND YES LIKE ALWAYS MY POOR MOM WOULD ALWAYS SAVE ME FROM EVERYTHING SHE WOULD LIE FOR ME GO GET ME AT ANY HOUR OF THE DAY IF I NEEDED HER SHE WAS THERE ONE WAY OR ANOTHER SO SHE DROVE TO BRIDGE LIKE I ASKED HER UT THE OPPOSITE SIDE I COULD GERE HER SCREAMING MY NAME IM HERE WERE ARE YOU TOU KIDS ARE CRYING FOR YOU VERONICA VERONICA I RAN THREW ALL PEOPLE TRYING TO GET ON SIDE WERE SHE WAS BUT I COULDNT THAN I SEEN HER SHE WAS REAL CLOSE SHE HAD ON A RED AND BLACK SHIRT BLACK NPANTS AND HER FLIPFLOPS SLIPPERS SHE WAS TALKING TO COPS ON THAT SIDE AND ASKING PEIOPLE IF THEY KNEW ME I WAS SCREAMING MOM JESSICA THAT WAS HER NAME BUT SHE COULDNT HEAR ME THAN I RAN INTO A COP SHE ASKED IF I HAD ANY WARRANTS I SAid i didnt think so but i gave her my niece imelda negrete name like i was her thinmking she didnt have any warrants than she said you have parking ticket your ok than i tild her i had to go to bathroom she let me go i tryed climbing over bushes tree branches i even climbed a wall trying to get my moms attention than i see her getting into her green car when she was turning to get in lane she needed ti be on my side i seen her roof of car was open i seen sparkles coming out were battery was than allmof a sudden my moms car caught on fire evwryone was trtying to tell her stop get off car fire fire by the time he seen fire it was too late her car drove into river i ran to umo in water were her car went in but it kept exploding like five times i screamed mom no mom im so sorry because of me you dieing i should of never asked you to cpme get me sorry no mom you cant die i ran t o were her car went into still wantingf to ump inside to try getting her oyr of car i knew she would panic and not know what to do so i had to at least try to get her out plus i remmember her saying she never wanted to die in fire or drowning i said the same thing too so i had to try but cops and people wouldnt let me they said it was too late i couldnt do nothing but scream mom im so sorry forgive me mom i miss her so much everyday i cry thinking of her and all the things she did for me i love that woman we faught alot called eachother names but we both knew we realy didnt mean it and my mom realy passed away she was 85 yrs old i took care of her until her last breath i lived with her all my life my older siblings hated me cuz mom would favor me they said and my kids i gave her temporary custody of my children so that way my husband wouldnt take them away from meso she had all four of them luis was seven or eight andrea was 5 brisa was 4 and miguel was new born like 8 months old when i gave her custody i wasnt suppost to be around them cps said but i never left them we all lived together at moms house before she passed i asked her for forgivness for all that input her threw she asked me too we had our long btalks the last two weeks of her life vshe asked me to stop using bdrugs i had to take care of her kids whih arfe realy mine she sid i should you everything you need to know to raise them cfrm cooking cleaning driving making things so your going to be alright dont leave my son which is luis y oldest in the streets get him a apartment or take himto love with you mia please dont leave him alone he need you the most watch all of them get you self together please i want to leave knowing there going to be ok and you too i aske d your si
This dream is a poignant reflection of your emotions, fears, and unresolved issues related to your relationship with your mother and your own life circumstances. Let's break it down to understand its various elements and their meanings.
The river is often a symbol of transition, emotions, and change. Its presence in your dream indicates that you may be navigating through turbulent emotions or situations in your life. Since you were with friends, it suggests the importance of social connections and support, but also highlights the unpredictability of social dynamics.
The difficulty you faced crossing the water implies challenges in moving from one state of being to another—perhaps transitioning to a new phase in your life or overcoming personal obstacles. The fear of getting lost or going the wrong way represents anxiety about making the right decisions or taking the right paths in your life.
Hearing about a "probation sweep" and realizing you have outstanding warrants reflects feelings of guilt and fear about facing consequences for past actions. It reveals an internal struggle with responsibilities and the fear of retribution. The urgency of wanting to be with your kids on Mother’s Day highlights the deep-seated love you have for them and the desire to fulfill your roles as a parent.
Passing the drugs to an unknown girl symbolizes an attempt to rid yourself of past mistakes or burdens that could harm your future. It suggests a desire to make better choices, which is a testament to your awareness of the repercussions of your past behaviors.
The strong presence of your mother in your dream emphasizes the emotional connection and reliance you have on her. Her willingness to help you and always being there represents your longing for support and understanding. The sorrow and fear you experienced when her car caught fire and went into the river reflects your deep fears of losing her—both in the dream and in reality, given that she has passed away. This event becomes a metaphor for unresolved grief and fear of abandonment.
Your struggle to reach your mother amidst chaos speaks to the determination you feel to mend relationships, despite the obstacles in your life. The wall you tried to climb represents the barriers you perceive between you and your goals—whether that’s reconnecting with your family, overcoming personal demons, or achieving emotional stability.
The imagery of fire symbolizes transformation but also destruction. The fire in your mother’s car may represent your fears surrounding your relationship with her; the idea that you may have caused harm or distress in her life. Your desperate attempts to reach her show your longing for forgiveness and your fear that you failed her in some way.
Your screams for forgiveness reveal a powerful emotional release and a need to process unresolved feelings—such as guilt, love, and fears of abandonment. It signifies a deep desire for resolution, healing, and a chance to make things right.
This dream seems to encapsulate your complex feelings surrounding your mother’s passing, your life choices, and the overwhelming love you have for your children. It may be helpful for you to reflect on these feelings in waking life—seeking ways to cope with your grief and finding healthier outlets for your emotions. Consider reaching out for support from loved ones or professionals to gain further understanding and healing. Embrace the love you have for your mother and apply the lessons she imparted upon you, especially regarding the care and protection of your own children.